I will not be defeated!

I've now had to frog the pedi socks twice for mistakes that I can't figure out how to fix. Last night I decided to take the yarn I've already knitted with off the ball and put it aside and start completely fresh. I'm hoping that what they say is true, "third time's the charm", and I can get these successfully finished for my friend's mom.

Been Busy

Well, got the crown finished and off to it's owner for his birthday, and have put my lace scarf on the back burner to work on a set of pedicure socks for his grandma(it'll be another surprise)and they were going really well until I found out what I'd done wrong and was unable to fix without ripping it all out and starting over. But, at least I know what my mistake was and can avoid it this time around.

The kiddos are being their usual, crazy, but generally wonderful, selves. Enjoying summer, coming up on Aidan's second birthday in a few short weeks(I can't believe he'll be 2), and then shortly after that, Caleigh starts school!

The gifted yarn

decided it wanted to be made into a lace scarf for me. It's one of those projects that I need to work on when the kiddos aren't around, b/c I need to concentrate on it more than I can when they're up and playing.

Almost Finished

I've gotten back into the knitting habit these past couple of days, and am almost done the body of the crown I'm working on for my friend's son. I should be able to start working on the points this evening, having it ready to felt tomorrow. Then I'll be able to put it in the mail by Saturday(I hope).

Got a Wonderful Surprise in the Mail Today

I opened my mailbox today to a big brown envelope that had a skein of the most lovely silk/wool yarn. It's a squishy-soft beautiful olive-y green colour. Now I just have to decide what it wants to be knit into(hopefully something for me)

Yahoo!!

Got the official call cancelling the procedure just after 10 this morning. Now I'll be getting weekly blood draws to check the hcg levels and make sure they're going down like they should be. Hopefully, they'll be down to 0 already, or by next week at the latest.

Finally Some Good News!

The u/s this afternoon showed, according to the tech and the radiologist, no need for a d&c!!! My ob's nurse called later on to say that indeed, it appeared as though there was nothing there, but we need to wait for the a.m. to get the dr's approval for the cancellation. However, it sounded like a done deal, and the doc's approval was merely a formality.

The other good news is that Caleigh is not allergic to bee or wasp stings, it's just a really severe reaction that we can treat with benadryl, she has no need for the epi-pen.

There's a bit of Hope

When I went to sign the consent form for the d&c this morning, I found out it won't be my ob doing it :( , but I may not have to have it done after all!! I mentioned to his nurse how close I got to an appointment on Friday, and then what happened in regards to faxed req's w/o a previously booked appointment to go with them. She was not happy, and started making phone calls to see what she could get. She got me an appointment with the clinic that's within walking distance(long, but doable) from our house this afternoon at 1:45!!! Needless to say, I'm keeping fingers and toes crossed that it shows no retained products, especially since I've had no bleeding(even brown spotting) since Wednesday of last week.

Annual Summer Visit

We decided last night that if the weather was good today, we'd take the kids to Upper Canada Village for our annual visit(we've gone every summer since Caleigh was born). It was so much fun this year, Caleigh wanted to go into buildings, find out what was going on there, and soak everything in. I even got to go into buildings I haven't been in before b/c I was always out with the stroller, or it was too crowded. We saw them making cheese, bread, and wool blankets. The biggest treat was the piglets that were out running around, they were letting the kids pet them. A team of horses being hitched to a coach was a big treat(both kids insisted on watching until they were hitched and gone).

I got to watch a little bit of hand-spinning taking place and saw some of the colours of yarn that were achieved with different natural items from around the farm(onion skins, apple bark, walnut, etc). On the way out, I picked up 2 more skeins of natural colour wool(plus two approx 2oz size skeins)to try more Kool-Aid dying with. They also had some carded wool that I'm going to practise my spinning with.

Not Good

I guess I can't get a break these days. Trip to the ER, now it looks like I have to have a D&C. My ob's office called yesterday to drop the news on me, but when I asked if there was a chance that what was seen in the ER u/s could've been a clot or something else rather than retained products, I was told that was a very good question, and she'd see about getting me an u/s today. She called back, said no luck, but that she'd fax in req's to 4 places, and to call them today to see if there were any cancellation. Only 2 even bothered to take my name and # down, and one I got thisclose to an appointment, only to be told that since the dr faxed the req in without an actual appointment first, that it probably got tossed as a wrong #, which is their "policy" or whatever.

So, it looks like I'll be having a D&C on Tuesday, but when I go to sign the consent on Monday, I'll definitely be asking quite a few ?s and telling them about the "policy" on faxed req's from the one clinic.

Knitting Like Crazy

For me, that is! A friend asked if I could make a felted crown for her son for his birthday early next month, and I said sure. I've actually gotten a lot done in the last 24hrs on it(just cast on yesterday, and I've already got almost 40 rows done(which is huge for me).

Said Goodbye

We had our memorial/closure gathering yesterday evening. Both my parents and Kevin's parents were there, along with Jess(one of our close friends-not to mention she's my bil's gf ;)). It was low-key, tear-filled, but there was also a lot of laughter, provided mostly by the antics of King Aidan.

Taylor and Ashley are now at peace together, and we will remember them always.

King Aidan :)

I finally finished Aidan's crown yesterday morning, got it felted and dried. I had to stretch it just a bit on a mixing bowl because it felted just a tiny bit too much around. When he tried it on this morning, the fit still wasn't quite right, so I've got it stretching a bit more higher up on the cuff area of it.

Scary Night

Ended up at the ER for a few hours last night b/c I passed 2 large clots and soaked a pad in less than an hour. After my labs and an exam showed nothing outwardly wrong(and b/c we live so close), the doc let me go home around 2:30 in the morning, with the promise that I would stop in the radiology dept on the way out to book an u/s for the next day. Had that around 1:30 this afternoon, then had to go back to the ER and wait for the results. There went another 3+ hours. There appears to be a retained fragment(may or may not be). The ER doc said that they could have the on-call OB take care of it, if I'd like. I said I'd like to talk to my regular OB first, so I'm to call them first thing in the morning, and see if he wants to do something right away or just wait and see for a bit, since it's only been about 5 days since the miscarriage happened.

Pool Time!

It's finally getting consistently sunny and warm, so we set up the pool for the kiddos yesterday (after convincing Caleigh on Friday that I couldn't set up the pool by myself, and that they could play in the little pool until Daddy could set up the "big" pool on the weekend). While Kevin was getting the ground levelled a bit for the semi-permanent pool, the kids played in the little one for a while, then "helped" to fill up the other one.

More Progress

I've made it past the colour change in the crown and am almost 10 rows into it. I'm really enjoying the relaxation and distraction that the knitting is giving me. At this rate, I might actually get it finished by the end of this week or next, which I think would be a record for me.

Baby's Gone

We went for an u/s on the 2nd to firm up dates, only to be told that the baby had died shortly after the first u/s. I was absolutely numb, heartbroken, angry, scared, and a whole host of emotions that I can't even describe. As soon as we got to the car, I fell apart, yelling that it wasn't fair(at which point a woman crossing the parking area started staring at me).

The doctor's office was great, I spoke to them in the afternoon of the 2nd, asking about the prometrium, and was told to immediately stop taking it, and that also the tech had faxed the u/s report to the doc's office, and it was the first thing he would see in the morning(and that he would probably want to speak to me the next day).

Thursday morning, I went out for some air, exercise and a little retail therapy at Michaels(I bought some yarn, and an instruction booklet to learn to crochet-I'm gonna give that another go in the near future). The dr called me on my cell at Michaels to let me know that we all did everything we could to keep the baby, but it was a weak pregnancy(not a total explanation, but enough for now), and that he was going to prescribe me a med to induce the miscarriage. He also said that after the bleeding is done, I'm to call them to set up an u/s to make sure everything is gone, and bloodwork to monitor beta levels. Finally, he said that next time, we'd start aggressive progesterone therapy right away.

Kevin and I decided that I would wait until Friday night to start the rx, since he had to be at a meeting on Friday afternoon. 3hrs after taking the rx, things started. By 2:30am, the baby had come out, a perfectly formed 7wk old fetus. Kevin wanted to name the baby, and so we chose Taylor as his/her name. We'll be having a memorial of some sort very soon, and I will be looking for one or more charms to add to my bracelet for Taylor.

Not sure when we'll start trying again, or if. We're just taking it one moment at a time to try to get through this.

Canada Day

Had a really nice Canada Day up at Calypso with the family. The kids ran around, played with some water in the metal tub, "helped" Grandpa, and just had a good time. We saw some loons, a really big spider, and of course, lots of red and white!